The struggles I’ve had with hijab were definitely more during the first few weeks of wearing it, but now I have gotten more comfortable with it and it has become a part of me, just like my actual hair. Which is something that I feel is very important. A lot of people say that just because a female wears a hijab, burka, niqab etc. and a male has a beard or wears Islamic clothing doesn’t mean they are perfect which, can be true and God only knows who we really are and what our hearts contain. But it also applies vice versa; if a male or female doesn’t represent himself or herself as a Muslim (by their outward appearance) doesn’t mean they are sinful, horrible people. First, only Allah (swt) can judge, and second, they could be very righteous, pious people, they may just keep their relationship with God personal & don’t feel like they have to dress a certain way and that’s totally fine in my opinion. That being said, me wearing hijab means that I am ready to let go of my worldly desires as much as I can and start working towards Jannah aka (afterlife/paradise/ heaven) if we work hard in this world, we will receive the fruits of our labor abiding therein eternally, in sha Allah. Alhumdulilah after truly internalizing this idea I finally understood the purpose of life. This illusion of temporary happiness. This test. all made sense. After that little things like straightening my hair or painting my nails became of less importance, don’t get me wrong it’s fun to dress up but there were other things that needed more attention, like my character and intentions in everything I did cause I finally had a wake up call that God was watching me this whole time, I can’t hide from him and I will be held accountable for my actions. Sorry to sound so serious but it is a serious topic and we often, feel like we have time to give to charity, make hajj, make up our fasts, pray, read Quran and anything else that we push aside because were too busy chasing our worldly desires.
So that is why I started wearing hijab because taking that step on the outside helped me improve myself on the inside. Understanding all this made my struggles seem like a needle in a haystack. Feeling comfortable going out in public and remembering all the years I walked around with my long hair, curling, crimping, straightening it, leaving It natural, putting it up, down, sideways and everything in between was hard to get over, but at the end of the day I kept myself in check. Wearing hijab (which includes dressing modestly) is for our own good. Some may argue that point because yes, there are different view points on it but I feel it has saved me a lot of trouble with the opposite sex,-man you guys are getting the deep stuff lol.
Anyways, now, my biggest struggle is something I wouldn’t even call a struggle, more of an annoyance….taking my hijab off to do wudu! Haha especially when I’m at school and I’m in a hurry but no matter what I always have to make time to pray and yea it takes a few minutes to take the pins out but life goes on.